As much as I love California (see post below), I totally hate it right now. I am here because yesterday at work I had to do something that I hoped I would never ever have to do – let someone go. I don’t think I have ever been as anxious and nervous in my life as I was yesterday. I won’t – and can’t – comment on the why’s, but I can say that all the things you read about doing these things are true – it is indeed a very painful thing to have to do. Because when it comes right down to it, we are all human. We are all trying to make our way in the world. A lot of us are trying to find our true calling, doing our best and living our lives. I’ve done this before, but not on this level. And it hurts. To be the one who has to deliver the news and let someone know a source of income and stability is gone? That hurts. I do not do the “ruthless, steely-eyed” thing well at all, because simply said, it is not who I am. Those who know me, know that. On a human level, it leaves a scar. And like many scars, it will heal a little bit but it will also leave a permanent mark.
